I really ought to be smacked. I am such a naughty girl. Not in the sick way of course. I have not been blogging, not been handing up my mag comm articles on time, not been doing my homework regularly. Hey, that was a pai2 bi3! Applaud me please. I am seriously dying to watch one of the Korean dramas stacked up in the drama. I finally finally finished watching My Beloved, where Rain so totally rocked in. He is totally the epitome of Korean cuteness. Unless someone else comes along later who's cuter, of course. But of course, I will restrict myself and not watch until the June holiday arrives. Because I have absolutely little/no time left, and I really ought to be using the time now to do *random more important stuffs*. See, I am self-disciplined and motivated. I'm saying that to delude myself. Sort of because I ended up choosing KI (Knowledge and Inquiry) for my choice of general studies. Like, OMFG. I think I will die doing KI, but I chose it because I wanted 11 units and did not want to do Econs at H2. Ah, never mind. You will never understand the anguish of my extremely complex mind. About subject combis, my first choice was TSD, Math, English Literature and Econs, and my second choice was the same except for Chem which replaced TSD. I'm rather sad because I like Chem, but I'm starting to not understand it. I think I'm getting stupider. Seriously! I take like, forever to understand a concept taught in class. Even now I think I'm not completely sure about Differentiation and whatnot. I think it might be the influence of sitting with a bimbo in class. LOL! (Hopes said bimbo is not reading this right now) Anyway, my mood has been down in the pits these few days. I start off having a good mood most day, but by the end of the day, I start getting really grumpy and pissed off at people. Hopefully this phase will end soon, because I don't really like bearing grudges on people, and it's quite hard to ignore them since I see them almost daily. "Forgive and forget" shalt be thy motto Perhaps the dead cat put a curse on me. >_< Eeeks. I hate looking at corpses. Like, I love killing flies but when I see their liveless forms on my palm I just want to die. Thankfully I will not be able to see myself when I die, but of course that's not an absolute. Maybe when I die my soul will float into the air and I will be able to see my own corpse. I don't think I mind the idea of death much. I just mind the process of entering death very much. The pain, the agony. Dying sounds horrible. You know how they always say suicidal people show signs of suicide? Like, always talking about death and all? You better watch out, I might be attempting suicide one of the days to come...

4/22/2006 06:49:00 pm;