Yesterday night, I dreamt about St John trainings. Maybe that explains why I felt so tired after an 8-hour sleep - I've been running about in my mind. Funny about the nostalgic feeling though, I actually miss circuit pumpings! I think those are the funnest sort of pumpings, sort of like a torturous version of the Kallang wave, only slower, if you get what I mean.
Sometimes, I wonder if I will like myself as a friend if I weren't me. Then I start debating with myself about the two possible outcomes (think probability). At times, when I feel really disgusted about myself, I veer towards a no, but at times when I feel really self-satisfied, I give a yes.
But seriously, I sometimes wonder why I have any friends at all. I can list down sooo many bad points about myself! Like, violent, stupid, self-absorbed etc etc. The worst thing is that I cry over all sorts of stupid things. I think if I knew someone like myself, I won't really like her. How very sad, no? I must learn to love myself.
Anyway, I am very happy now because the SS test is over, althought I expect a fail. >_<> Shopping around at Tm with wuyue, and not buying anything in the end. I am sad, however, that the shoes I liked didn't come in my size. For once I wished I had bigger feet!!
2> Giggling at all sorts of things, for no reason at all.
3> Suanning people. That must be one of the biggest loves of my life, besides people, gossiping, shopping, TV, music, etc.
4> The muffins my mother baked. I think she rocks in baking. Must learn from her!
Notice I am keeping track of the various things which made me happy. This is to help me remember my day as a good one, rather than one that was boring and plain with nothing special happening. Although giggling is not really special, but rather a norm for me...
I think people around me have weird senses of humour. Mr Shi has a really weird one. He loves to lean over people's benches and eavesdrop lah. [note to self: talk softer during electives to prevent him from hearing my stupid comments] I think in my electives report he will probably mention that I am a loudmouth, or something. Which is the truth, I know, but STILL...
Am really bored, and did this blogthing THING. Which I haven't gone to in ages. Self-amusement!
| What Your Face Says |
 At first glance, people see you as driven and ambitious.
Overall, your true self is moody and dynamic.
With friends, you seem logical, detached, and a bit manipulative.
In love, you seem mysterious and interesting.
In stressful situations, you seem selfish and moody. |
Kiss and hug =D
