Sentiments. The word kept coming up in my head the past few days, and today Mr Yang kept talking about them during Social Studies. Sentiments for the country, Nationalism. Totally different from the sentiments I feel. It's so difficult to describe, and I can't pinpoint exactly the kind of sentiment. Must be the full moon (is it still full?) taking an effect on me. But I think it's really funny how people sometimes blame the moon for mood swings. Like, the moon has totally no connections at all to a person, and I highly doubt the accuracy of using that. Sigh, I seriously think my English sucks. I often pretend I know the meaning of a word and use them any-oh-how, and sometimes I get lucky and get them right, but at other times I don't. I guess I am really lucky when writing essays and exams, because they somehow always turn out to be used correctly, and I get my language marks. It's kind of weird. But I think it's really unfair to gauge how good a person's language is by purely those marks. I mean, the teacher marking the scripts probably hardly ever talks to me, so s/he will probably never find out how bad my vocab is, and pronunciation. But when i type or write, I find myself doing so so much more coherently than when I'm talking. I think it has to do with the thinking time, I have more time and space to sort out my ideas. I don't like to keep people waiting by thinking through what I want to say in reply to them. I guess this is why I hardly speak up in class, except if the answer is a one-word one, then I will voice my opinion. Otherwise, you can hardly expect me to talk in class at all. So I wish people like Darren whose English is like tons better than mine would stop saying that mine is good. Because it so obviously isn't. I also wish people will stop saying that Mr Koh likes me (as a student, duh), because I totally do not think so! It's really intriguing where people get their ideas from, I wish I had creative juices like theirs. -_- And during a game of bridge today, we all started imitating other people. Like, I was Sarah in one game, while Sarah was Ruiqi. It was quite funny, seeing how Leon blushes (ok, exaggeration) whenever "sarah" proclaimed her love for him. Totally cute. But I wish the two of them would get it on already =p And we played the roles of teachers too ;) Hilarious. Nick was writing sick stuff all over the board, quoting American Pie I guess. Thanks to Darren, I now understand most of the jokes, and most importantly, the one he wrote about me! *Reminder to self: Strangle Nick when I see him tmr morning* Seems like the full moon is getting onto other people too. Hope the Sun will help lighten our spirits a little tomorrow. Perhaps it will be a better day, with the end of school, and return of holidays and the whatnots. P.S. I still got the eletives I bidded for, and it is damn malu for my name to appear as the lowest bidder! At least it means I'm a SMART bidder =D

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