I was playing around with shapes to try and get them into a decent looking layout. Still attempting to make my own blog template after what seems like years, but never having succeeded. The best I ever went was to steal codes from other people [heh heh, i am a pro at that], and then add in stuffs of my own. At least, those attempts didn't go haywire. But the main reason why I hardly succeeded is because I am trying to get my blog to work in circles, rather than in rectangles or rounded rectangles. Circles are much more fun to play around with, but not the least bit fun to work with. Never mind, I will persevere to the end and I am sure I will get the perfect template one day - made entirely by yours truly! =D Oh my, I just found this really nice picture in the desktop of Raito. He might be evil [Death Note character], but we must not neglect his good looks. Anyway its blackish and gothic-ish, which is nice. I like. I think its amazing how great composers string all those different chords and notes together. They just sound so, right. Sometimes it seems so easy, but really when you try it out, its so difficult. I think its still relatively easy to just hum out a tune in your mind, but if you try to get the notes right on the piano, it gets really tough. And what's more amazing is how the lyricist manages to put all the different words together, and somehow string everything up into a nicely flowing song! I find it such a challenging job, so we should all show respect to the different songs that have so much effort put into to create. However, it's impossible to like every single song there is, and everyone has certain types of music they dislike. But I believe over time you will begin to accept these forms of music. Like, I used to think rap music was crap, just lots of people talking away, but if you don't care about the voice and read the lyrics, sometimes the song might be good. So you see I am a fair and just person, and I do not ostracize. =D Why am I saying all these? because I suddenly remembered my failed attempts in trying to make a song. Hahaha, I fail in everything I do, making a blog template, a song etc etc. And anyway I always fail in making my chocolate chip cookies taste right. But that's beside the point. At least I try. Cliche it might be, but some things you never know until you try. At least that's one of the values I am sure I have. I hardly understand any other values of mine. Quite often, I find them contradicting. And of course, I try to find out what's the main purpose in life. Why we continue to reproduce and let our species live on. Why we always strive for a good life, but eventually leave the world and leave everything else behind. Is there a future we wish for our kind to have, and is this future our purpose in living? But if there is no such future, why are we living then? Were we created to create a purpose in living, and we live to fulfil this purpose, yet if we were not created in the first place, we would not have to doubt the purpose of our existence. Sometimes I wish someone would just come up with an explanation why we were brought to this Earth. We are always working so hard, educating ourselves in hope of a good life, yet we come to realise there is no purpose in this life. Or perhaps we should think that precisely because there is no purpose, we should just try to get a good life, or we will be very sad creatures living on Earth, like an empty shell. Bah, this is beyond my normal thinking scope and I should leave it for them aspiring philosophers to solve. Shall go back to browsing through all the low artish stuff! Low art is the way to go!

10/12/2005 03:04:00 pm;