I am very sad, because I read through my posts I made this year, and I realise that my mood has really dipped to really low levels. I used to sound so happy and eager in my posts, but I have lost that energy. Instead, I have gained more pessimism and I hesitate about what I am to blog about. I concentrate more on grammar and such things, which is really superficial. I mean, who writes in their diary with perfect English? A little mistake here and there can't hurt much. I am getting too serious in my blog posts, which is a reason why even I won't enjoy reading my own blog. I promise I will try to recall my own cheerful self and write as I used to again. But it's hard, with all these confusing things happening and all the fluid identities and everything. I don't know which direction to head towards, everything's a difficult decision. For now I just wish for the stress to go away. They are taking away my life and giving me pimples in return =( Besides losing my optimism, I have also lost my passion for writing! As in writing poems and stories and stuff like that, instead I just drabble on and on for days on end. I know it's boring to read, so I will try harder to work those creative cells and make some nice news writings! =D I am slightly more relaxed now as I have finished Philosophy, I was in a crappy mood just now for several reasons: 1) The terrible humid weather. Wah, this is causing everyone to sweat soo soo much. 2) Daryl's consistent coughing. So loud some more, really irritaing. No offence, but there you go. 3) My own tiredness. My eyes are closing on me and yet I have this load of homework to carry away before I can close my eyes in peace. The only thing I can rejoice about now is I have the tagged harry potter book finally (thanks the anonymous one who bought the book), and that tomorrow we only have to reach school at....9:15! Yay, how wonderful! And wooyeah, jove and anne saw some of the superstar people, I am quite sad I didn't see them lah, but they like expect me to be jealous of them or something, so I was quite unhappy about it. But I'm OK now =D Must buck up for the remaining week. Enough ramblings now. Shall concentrate more on reading HP and the HBP. Adios!

7/28/2005 11:06:00 pm;