What a depressing day. I know I said that Claire's blog is a typical one of a pessimist, but right now I am going to blog about some pretty sad stuff too. At least, to me. It all started bright and fine today, with PE. Terrible. We ran 2.4km and walked 1km. Not too bad though. I didn't feel very faint or whatever, just a little tired and sore in the legs. Think with practice my SJAB genes will return to me? (WING YAN is actually from St John's too!!! Unbelievable. No wonder she has an SJ face) So lessons were fine today. Maths was a little difficult to understand though. We are doing surds, and this the PRCs have learnt before already, so all of them were like pros or something..we have to ask them for help all the time actually. But I think we spent a lot of time laughing because Marianne is her usual bimbotic self and making up silly jokes. I was rather deaf today, and kept hearing wrong things. So, ya, maybe Li-ern (or should I put leanne) is right and I have lots of ear-wax inside? Food for thought.. So we are repicking the angels and mortals due to divulging of information. Quite irritating, so I am going to persevere and NOT tell anybody. LOL. Hope I get someone good. OMG Huang Hua is like a psycho. He can ALWAYS tell when I'm having mood swings. Like right now. Just because of a sentence I said which other people will take as a joke. *claps wildly for him* So anyway, what is my real reason behind the temperamental behaviour I'm having? Basically there's two reasons. Basically, today, they were trying to settle the issue of class seating arrangements. And so they decided to go with the Innovation and Enterprise grouping one. So basically S's group has 3 PRCs. So she was rather pissed off by that fact, and commented that it was unfair or something along that line. I don't remember things which are not good you see.. So D heard and she was very verr angry, so as I was a mutual friend, she came to complain to me and L had to join in making me very flustered. You see, basically I was not angered by the fact that either party is being unreasonable, its the fact that I'm ALWAYS being treated as some sort of peacemaker. Not that its not good, but perhaps its the fact that I'm a Cancer which makes me so peaceful and everything, but hey its NOT good to be the middleman all the time. Just take the case of SL and C for example. I remember last year me and SL even had a convo over the phone dedicated just for explaining her certain dislike for C. Its quite tough, as I liked both of them very much and they were both my dear friends. Even now they still have conflicts.. I hope this doesn't happen any longer (although I suspect it won't last more than a day or two), as I can be quite vulnerable at times. OK, the second reason. I was watching a certain show on TV. So this is the scenario lah: The daughter of the family has been deprived of her favourite toys since young (which happens to be a funny looking doll but still), and when she finally gets her hands on one, no one understands and makes fun of her. OK, you must be thinking why am I in a bad mood cos of that? OK, not just bad mood. I cried at that scene. So anyway, why? Because I can relate to it. Since young, my mother ALWAYS thought I liked barbie dolls. But does she know that behind her back I'm making those dresses split, and sometimes try to hide the dolls away instead of playing with them? Ok, this is alittle out of point, but still, why does she like to force me? Although a lot of people say she trusts me a lot (like she doesn't ever question where I go) but sometimes she's so...I dunno of any word to describe her. Its like she doesn't understand me? OK, let's cry together while you sympathise for me. I'm not trying to gain sympathy or whatever, I'm merely blogging out my feelings for the day. I think this is the first time i cried so much in weeks. Enough about that. Script writing was boring today. PERIOD. Although the 5 of us talked pretty well, the teacher talks so damn slowly..LOL And my idea is so stupid. But I sort of forgot about it so i thought it up at the very last minute. I will think of something else.. I'm tired of blogging. BYE

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