My heart has been broken by the mere words of a stranger, the lowly subject of yours truly. Just a few minutes ago. "Your eyesight has increased an average of 150 (!!!!) and your astigmatism is 300+ (!!?!?!?!).." Oh my gosh....this is like a totally alien language to me. For years I have prided myself on the fact that, since I have entered my secondary school years, surely my eyesight will somehow stabilise? No!!! The truth has finally settled in. My pitiful little heart cannot take so much pressure. I can't believe it...argh...if only I didn't use to be that nerd who enjoys reading sooo much, even in the dark. regrets, regrets... And what's worse, the optician said my eyeballs are FLAT. What kind of description is that? Clueless huh? I wanted to laugh, but didn't. Anyway, it would cost me $260 to make contacts, and only like half of that for people without astigmatism? Oh, I hate myself. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ Anyway, I am currenlty hooked onto this series of books called "Gossip Girl". And I am starting to read Meg Cabot again. I stopped a few years back as I regarded them too 'girlish', but now, it seems like it might be good for a fairytale to happen some how. Won't it be great if you suddenly found out you were of purple blood (royalty that is)? But we can only dream.... Anyway, can you believe I watched confessions for the third time today? I don't believe it myself. I am sooo in love with lindsay lohan!! she rocks my world!!! HAHAHAHAHAHA... Just feel like crying and laughing now. My stupid eyeballs...can't they be better and listen to me for once? SIGH..... you know you love me, jiayi*

12/19/2004 08:48:00 pm;